Bad situation

First off... Mungo, I hope your crescents were good...

Next up... I finally talked to Elena and what I was assuming was her being pissed off apparently was not. She came right up to me when I saw her and planted a wet one on me (kiss that is... fucking pervs) This is not exactly what I was expecting. I was actually hoping for the cold shoulder. That would have made it easier to stay away and break it off that way. Instead we actually had to talk things out. I basically told her that I felt like I was getting to close and that I was not going to be around as often. Yeah, this worked real well, right up until the point where we got the hotel room. So I still said the stuff about us needing to back down a bit, but damn... The chick is a hottie, even when she has no make-up on, so it is not brutal to wake up to in the morning. So, needless to say, it didn't pan out the way I was expecting it to.

Now here comes the other issue. Steph is a good person. There is some stuff that I will tell y'all about if you catch me on messenger, but I am not going to post it here and I would prefer that you did not add your guesses to what it is on here either. Anyway, so Steph is 30, brown hair, blue eyes, SSgt type. What is it with me and 30 yr olds right now... It is almost funny... We went to the OHOP (Osan House Of Pancakes) and had dinner tonight... Well, more like breakfast, but anyway, we went out to eat. Sat there for a while and talked then she stopped by my room and we just kinda hung out and I gave her a back massage. (honestly, nothing else involved in tonight's endeavor and all of our clothes remained on.) Don't really know what else to really say about Steph, other than it is another cool chick to hang with.

So the dilemma part of this... Man, I feel like an idiot. It would have been better if Elena just blew me off and didn't want to talk to me. By the way... She also said those 3 little words to me and I started to get nervous. And no, the 3 words were not "Lick my clit"... Unfortunately... That would have been easier to deal with too. However, I like Steph too, but I don't really see that going anywhere either. Elena is supposed to leave in the near future though (that is what she says anyway) Steph will be here until I PCS and I don't have to translate shit when I talk to her, unless we get into the shop talk type shit. Man, I really never expected to be in this situation. I never found myself to be that attractive (though I don't think I am Quasimodo either) and my personality is generally cocky as shit. Not exactly the best qualities in a person. Fuck dudes... Do I blow one off or just pretend like nothing is going on. I have a feeling that the latter would backfire at some point though. I could just see walking around and, hey, there are both of them talking to eachother or some shit like that. You know, the worst case scenario. This is actually making me chuckle a bit while I am typing. My sense of humor really is fucked up.

Fuckin A buddies... Fuckin A.