Getting frustrated

So here I am, staying up late as hell so I can call back to the fucking east coast so I can try to get some answers on the paperwork hell. Well needless to say, it is beginning to use up a calling card like a mother fucker. OK, so I am exagerating a bit, but I am still frustrated because I keep getting different phone #'s to contact different offices and have to listen to fucking recordings for 10 minutes to get to the office that I think I needed and it really was not what I needed. UGH!!!

Anywho, Mungo, ya know, I appologize that I can not make a phone call to y'all to talk often. That is what the fucking computer is for using yahoo messenger. It is more cost effective for me and I do not use any phone cards. Realize that even when I call y'all that I am still using a phone card even with DSN. It is a 60 min a month phone card that is free, but that can be used up quite quickly. By the way, I am not really sorry.

There is a reason that ST started the blog. This is one of the main ones. We are all in different locations and this is the easiest way to stay in contact with one another. It takes 5 fucking minutes out of your day to jot something down or make a comment about what someone else said or asked. I guess 5 fucking minutes is too much to ask from people every couple days for bro's that mean the world to me and I would do anything possible I could do for them.

Too much to ask? I think fucking not.

Mungo, this was not meant to be a direct attack at you, however, you were the nearest target and the BVR bitchslap had to be made.

OO could take the time to put something down at a minimum of once a week. He is one of my bro's and there is much love for him, but he is a fucking slacker when it comes to this. I still have my thoughts of why he doesn't blog, but fuck, throw that on here or tell you that when he talks to you. She can't be hovering around him 24/7/365 (this year 366.)

I want to know what is going on in y'alls lives or else I wouldn't ask and I wouldn't tell you what is going on in mine. I like to hear about the kids, girlfriends, fuck buddies, whatever, just anything that is going on with you at any given time.

This is when I need y'all the most. I am making a huge decision and am a billion miles away and I need your support. Yes, I have made up my mind and yes I am continuing on with my decision, but I still want you to be part of it.

This is what worries me the most... I have no doubt in my mind that ST and I will continue to talk well past the years from now. I have doubts that I will be talking to Mungo, Oldman, and Bubbles. Here is why:

Bubbles - OO does his own thing (which is cool) but just does not want us to know what the hell is going on most of the time. This I know, because you can all admit we have gotten different pieces of puzzles when we talked to him on the phone. Oh, And J doesn't like me.

Mungo - you have the largest heart of all of us. You follow it blindly though most of the time. This in of itself is not always bad, but your heart goes to people without thinking of yourself first. This will mean making sacrafices for that person so they are the cornerstone. This is not bad either. I think the love of your life should be your cornerstone, but should not completely take you out of your happy place. I really don't know if this will make sense to you since I am wondering if it makes sense to me, but I know where my mind is tracking. Bottom line, Think of yourself first to make you happy, then worry about making others happy. Whatever that decision, so be it.

Oldman - Oldman and I have gotten to be pretty good friends over the past 2 assignments. I consider him a friend that I can trust with almost anything. (sorry about the almost, but life is a bitch) He has helped me through shit when I just needed to get my mind off of the stresses in my life even if it meant pissing his wife off upon occasion because I just needed to get the fuck away from M before I or she made my life a living hell. He is there for me now more than ever, however, you are fixing to retire and where that takes you is not totally certain. More than likely it will be northern TX. TX is good, however, it is a hell of a drive from H-Town when I go to visit there.

ST - ST and I are (in my opinion) closer than brothers. He is closer than anyone in my family and this is by choice. You can't choose your family, and trust me, I would not ask for my family to be any different. They are the most wonderful people in the world (with a few fucknuts mixed in, but I accept them anyway) You do choose your friends. We plan on living in the same area of the country (more than likely the same state.) ST is the one who's approval I value the most of any of us. Including mine at sometimes because I tend to be a bit more rash and he has got the level head most the time. Don't get too much of an ego though, you go nuts at stupid shit sometimes too. His wife actually likes me. Why? I don't know, but she does. This plays an important factor since I know what kind of hell it can be on a marriage when the wife does not like your best friend.

Anyway, I am probably way off where I fucking started from in the first place and I have a tee time in 6.5 hours for a golf tournament.

Bro's this was not meant to rag on anyone, just pointing out what I foresee in the future. Hopefully this does not happen and I sure as hope it does not happen in the next few years. But we have one that is drifting away from the pack that I am not confident will rejoin the formation without us goat-roping his ass.

Just remember... YOU MY DAWGS!!!!

Eddie